I wrote this for my eldest a few years ago. I’m not sure if she ever read it, so to give her an opportunity to again hear my heart and because it’s an accurate base line for me to begin my life story, I’ve decided to post this.
Neither plain nor perfect describes our path from there to here.
Always being submerged in the drama of things past.
Is it now age, or time, or both
that finally has allowed me to see the fullness of our lives together.
Not to dismiss the pain, but no longer willing to wallow in it.
Rather to quietly accept what has been and to embrace wholeheartedly what is.
I stand in awe of the choices that have led us to this place.
I stand amazed at the results of our actions up till now.
Surely we should be destroyed without a footing to hold us upright.
But marvel of marvels! We have survived – And we have flourished!
How is it possible after what we have experienced, through ignorance and fear,
the times we have hurt.
Our greatest blessing has been a love fiercely fought, a passion defended to the last,
a quiet and often overlooked faith in one another.
How blessed we are.
No longer willing to look back, nor even tempted to look too far ahead
I rejoice in the now – I rejoice in you!
But then so be it!
You are and always will be, my heart and my joy
My pride and my light
I love you and cherish our journey together
You hold my light and my fire within you,
You too are blessed………………………